I have never been a huge fan of February. True story. I have always found February to be very blah and somewhat obnoxious. I thought I had escaped the wrath of February this year... but alas, I was wrong. I cannot deny it... I am blue. I so did not want to admit I was blue. And I HATE complaining. :o( I have a wonderful husband, adorable Puggle, sweet house with food in the pantry, etc etc etc. I try to convince myself that I have nothing to be blue about. But too bad so sad. That is just not the case. February gets me each and every time. I was sailing along so well until last week! It started when I decided to smack my head while skiing. That injury caused an almost never-ending dull headache (I think it finally subsided for good last night) and neck pain (that is still present). And things just went downhill from there. It didn't matter what I did... I didn't do it right or I was not satisfied. I got a scratch on my new iPhone... I was more easily annoyed than normal by people at work... I couldn't focus because of my headache... I couldn't produce a yummy dinner... I ate fast food FOUR times in mere days which doesn't help the scale... Z was sick and we couldn't go to Fur Rondy this weekend... and on and on and on. And I finally addressed the red elephant in my life (red is my favorite color... ;o)... I miss my family and friends. A lot. I miss having that movie date or a friend to go shopping with... and I am sure that I will have this in Alaska once we become more established... but for now it is just hard. :o( We do have wonderful friends here (including my close friend I had before I got here that I lean on wayyy too much) and I look forward to establishing deeper friendships with people here... but I am just very impatient with this! I want the same situation I left in Charleston HERE...and NOW! And I know it doesn't work like that. I am just impatient. And it just hit home this weekend. I don't deal well with the feeling of being lonely. I am sure that Z's looming trip is not helping my mood. Even though it sucks... I am ready to rejoin the Air Force life because it is inevitable and it is better than THINKING about it all the time. I am so grateful for the MONTHS I got to spend with my husband (first time EVER in our 5 year relationship!) but it is time to rejoin our military lifestyle (even though it will still be 101% better here than it was in Charleston as this base is wayyy slower). Oh. And did I mention that I walked into work today and the state auditors are in for the week? Good grief. February is throwing punches right and left. And Z just informed me that he is not able to go skiing with me on Monday which could potentially be our last opportunity to ski together this year (as he will be gone for several weeks). Le sigh.
Even my computer is throwing fast balls. For some reason the red eye thing would not work so you have to enjoy a nice demon-like picture of my favorite cheerleader and I. ;o) Once my computer and I make up and I am able to edit pictures... I will be able to post some pictures from the highlight of my weekend... our Crud tournament! Don't expect anything until March though. ;o) I am giving up on February and not even trying any more. Thank goodness we only have ONE MORE DAY TO GO! (Silly leap year... ;o) But until then... I will be getting my act together and working on getting rid of the February blues (because I really shouldn't complain with all the good I have in my life!) And March is literally just hours away...
Even my computer is throwing fast balls. For some reason the red eye thing would not work so you have to enjoy a nice demon-like picture of my favorite cheerleader and I. ;o) Once my computer and I make up and I am able to edit pictures... I will be able to post some pictures from the highlight of my weekend... our Crud tournament! Don't expect anything until March though. ;o) I am giving up on February and not even trying any more. Thank goodness we only have ONE MORE DAY TO GO! (Silly leap year... ;o) But until then... I will be getting my act together and working on getting rid of the February blues (because I really shouldn't complain with all the good I have in my life!) And March is literally just hours away...
and March has never let me down... ;o)
ps - I am done whining. ;o)
Ugh, I am right there with you - I normally hate January and February! There's nothing exciting that happens in those months. Even though March isn't usually warm enough to hang out on the beach, there is at LEAST Easter or Spring Break (even though I don't get one of those anymore) to look forward to. Thankfully, since it's been a bit of a warm winter, J & F haven't gotten to me as much. I am proud to say I only had to put on a turtleneck sweater once this year, haha. But at least you have some fun winter activities to keep you occupied! And if you ever need some SC sand as a pick me up, just let me know and I'll have some sent your way in a heartbeat!
ReplyDeleteI'll be thinking about you Lauren! You are so strong, and I truly admire you for being a military wife! I'm nervous, anxious about potentially being an Army wife, and I can tell you that I would not handle that Alaska move well, at all! You seem to be so upbeat, and it's so inspiring! I hope you have a great last-day-of-February, and that March treats you a million times better! xo
ReplyDeleteI know exactly what you mean! I've always disliked the month, and people think I'm crazy to not like an entire month (as if it is personally offensive to me). It is just always the time of year when the weather remains cold/miserable, and you are just sick of it. The winter holidays and cheer are long gone, but it is still so far until spring and warm weather.
ReplyDeleteI'm in the same boat as you as far as moving and no friends too :(
It's a bummer, but hopefully it gets better soon!
Have you ever tried seeing a chiropractor? I always kind of thought they were scary until I had a crazy canter on a horse one day. I had 8 migraines in one week, saw the chiro and was fixed, instantly {{no joke!}} Just a thought.
ReplyDeleteTomorrow's March! Yay for a better month {{hopefully}} and I don't think there is a spouse out there who hasn't had missing their family sneak up out of no where and punch them in the stomach {{so to speak}}. At least your not alone in that...?
It's totally ok to feel blue. I hope March is much better for you! :)
ReplyDeleteHappy March 1!!!! Happy new month and happy everything else for you!! :) Praying that your blues go away. I know the feeling about the friends thing. I've been living in a town (in a hotel) for 7 months where I no virtually no one while my hubby is at home still around our friends and family. But alas, I'm going home SOON! I just found out that I will be able to work from home. (SCORE!) So, my prayers have been answered and I pray yours will be too! Keep your head up chica!
ReplyDeletethank you all soooooooo much for such sweet words!!! :o) xo
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